twist in the tale

all these good authors are always writing these story's where certain events are happening, there is good usage of english vocablary and story is nicely moving along, until towards the end where there is a twist in the tale. Well i will also write a story like that now, But u see this is not a made up story this is a real life tale.

I was sitting in the bus next to sahil, coming back from vasco after playing some football game. To start conversation i ask him " how is his studies going "

he told me about his E grade in Computer programming one. Now this was the era before k . e raman so E grades were very hard to get . Even with my full efforts i had failed to get 1.( my dream to get all grades was later full filled) . So i gave him sympathy mean while already starting to feel happy about my own very good d grade now.

2 days later i got to know that sahil has got a grades in all the other subjects. ( <---- the twist )

well dont worry about the revenge since i already got it when eni thrashed mech in ace finals.

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prahaar and bible

i was travelling in car with my brother driving, some how the discussion went to prahaar. This is one of favourite movie of both me and my brother. This movie is probably the greatest indian movie made related to army. Now when my brother asked me does it have a story, i spontaneously told him that well its the story of jesus christ.

let me explain.

major chavan is similar to jesus christ, he makes men out of boys in his camando course . He passes out his justice, is extremely good at everything like mouth organ, chess and performs camando obstacles with great ease and poise. He is also Bastard literally. Infact his story is darker since they explicitly showed his mother, to be a prostitute and she is taken away from him at young age.

Even peter is there. in bible peter is the main follower of christ ( even though he didnt save christ ) here peter is also a follower of chavan. he does what the other peter should have done. Fights bad people,he does it even with out legs. He dies trying

Chavan is supposed to attend peters wedding. But when he reaches peter is already dead . Moreover he finds an cold, cowardly reaction from society, which now accepts all kinds of bullshitness.(for the lack of good vocabulary)ultimately in a real awesome god like act he kills many people.

later chavan is declared mad. "what is a sane man to do in an insane society" but the movie ends on a brighter note they show chavan leading naked kids to sort of like salvation. Now i dont know if this movie is copied from some english or other movie. It will always remain one of my favourite just for showing cammando training in such nice way

living like vampires

as living the life of a noctural i always felt my life is closer to vampire. now i realise there is lots of similarities , and we may be in reality those vampires only. With all this traveling and seeing so much and everything moving so fast we lose the aah

let me start again what i really want to say is that we wont have the life of a static village were friends of your childhood stay with you , the place you once were will no longer be the same once you return for the lack of same people( even same people might change , especially if you never knew them in first place) and the change in the place itself. so you grow older the world you once knew might not be same. This cold reality makes one even similar to a vampire( they live awfully long and everything around them ages and dies out).

the old homes often flash in my head, when i wake up in the dark and my feet are supposed to move automatically they lead me wrong , specially i cant find switch boards and i have lost the orientation of walls. furniture is being used in different way and this confuses me .
Old people from my life, as i meet them on facebook, i remember what they said , sometimes i come across some girl and i remember this girl had told a story in assembly ( which i loved and always remember) . I see these scene flashing where i am talking to people i remember what people said where in school we were sitting .I remember why people had fights at which place , what 'gallis' people said etc. All this has nothing to do with present and some how we have it , we were in it but now what to do with it ?



when ever one writes, always end the text before one starts putting in thougths/arguments against what he was initial writing .There is therefore some sorta ceiling of logic that one must not break and go above it , For what ever is written can be easily countered by none other than one who wrote it.

why to write

the question is why to write-

but before that,i wisely think what to write(as i dont want to get into existentialism ) , should one write a long story of his life or something similar to his life condensing all of his lessons learnt in life . but what use is that to some one, but himself. Should then one write the short stories, full with humor of life escapades, Stories which i would could tell my friend over some casual chat. these stories at least entertain the reader.

But as the reader goes on he will get so tired of the same kinda jokes, then one has to write a tragic story , which is in someway is inspired by people liking less and less of my stories.

But one benefit of writing, that i have found is that i get a insight into a though process of a writer. So when i read a book i may get (or i think at least) what brought upon the author to write the book. What was the initial idea and what made him do all the effort.Reading and writing then becomes one if i want to read i must write.

When i came across certain stories in my life i got so captured by their ideas, emotions . I also thought a story so beautiful must be just lurking outside my imagination waiting for me. So thats why i decided to write this blog so i can gather my thoughts, moreover i develop a capacity to write .

the trip as i remember it

My final semester at college(4-1), and we finally go on a trip . this trip which is in mohits words - god must have felt sorry for us and there is out break of jaundice in college.

write one para about car and how sailesh sets it up

we start off,first thing we do is me and sailesh buy two beer cans for each one of us,But moment we reach back in cab many people say they dont drink beer. So i have lots of it. We reach some bridge,stop the car there and rest .While we were resting there we started exploring the place . their we found a cement wall , 2 feet wide, wide enough to walk on it. This wall is going parallel to the river , so we start walking on it. While walking i loose my balance and fall on one side. But luckily i fall on the correct side (where only bushes etc are there and no stones- like the other side where stones are there). so in some way lucky only i pick my self up and climb back on to wall. As we walk onwards , we discovered a beach, on side of the river (small beach it was 10 feet 10 may be) but people became very happy .

i don't know why we were enjoying doing stupid stuff may be out doing something is better than not doing anything.

i don't remember what we had for lunch or were we went for dinner. that night we reach gokarana. The first thing we did was look for some cheap place ( which almost led us to some haunted looking (write gre word for old and broken) hotel . In the night we went to see temples of gokarana. Even though i am a atheist i went to see temple for architecture. I think so ,then there was talk of how religion has become the economy of this palace and why these people even need so much money and have fixed rates going into lakhs for performing religious rites

later that night amidst a thousand mosquitoes when every one else slept off i saw the movie "up" (i always never sleep in trips , i always sleep last wake up first ) the movie was about an old man who always dreams of going to some dream destination ( i don't know where or forgot) but he never did . At the old age he ties billions of balloons to his house and takes off finally following his dream. this is a weird coincidence in my hindsight . or may be i made it up, but this is a good way to integrate a movie in your own life this way i never forget, So in some way like us he leaves, but i dont remember where he went or if he even achieved what he went out for (he always wanted to do go out with his wife but his wife had died now),some other characters and talking dogs i remember ,but they all didn't add to my remembrance of the further development of story, pointless . What was more entertaining though was sailesh and rehman burling abuses at mosquitoes in their sleep .

next day i wake up first , then i wake up sailesh we take rehman's van and roam around in "gods own city" , this was in a way heavenly just because i wanted to drive around with my college friends.

after the normal stuff we leave this hotel, we leave for some place, some om shaped beach i think (or two beaches adjacent), like all goan beach it has nothing but sand and men. i go sit at a safe place where sailesh is also sitting and then a wave comes and splashes us ,i lose my mobile again. I realise that sailesh is all ready high and the place was always in the range of waves very nice i say (i remember because its like this always) . wet hen did go on some trek, i dont know where it was ,but small trek only but again every one was very happy they did something.

after having good food we move on, where i dont remember(may be jog falls), next thing i remember was the drive in the hills weather was wet and there where many small water falls around in the mountains, we would get to some stretch in driving where there was so much fog that we couldn't see more than few feet, this is my favorite weather, its like the best- the weather can get. We then, around late evening reach jog falls.

we reach the place go to eat food in some local market .There we eat eggs and other stuff like maggi, we all go to the same shop and the guy who owned the next shop got pissed and jealous of his neighbour shop getting so many hungry people. So he throws his garbage on sailesh ,sailesh takes it as a insult to his pride rest of the people never cared, i also found it most amusing .

that night i got to see pyaasa , well i wanted to actualy get booze and every one to drink and talk. but people just slept , so i saw the movie after trying to drink vodkaa which sailesh had brought but nothing with it.

the movie is one of the best i ever saw , it was about a poet whos true works and value, never get recognized . he gets abandoned by his girl friend for some rich fellow , there was this prostitute though who could understand . this i didnt like i would have like the man to be even more lonely and his life even harder . the songs were great, movie was slow . in the end he gets recognition but he tells the public that poems don't belong to him and he becomes a recluse.

the story also contains a song "jinhe naaz hai hind pe" , involves one man's pain about the sadness of this earth after he gets drunk and sees the reality of india ( world)

the next day i wake up first again wake up every one else want to tell them about pyaasa, but only sailesh wants to discuss . but he hasn't seen the movie and he wants to speak but not listen so i take lite and go back to sleep . People wake me up we get ready and leave for water fall

the most amazing water fall i had ever seen was right there in front of me, only i had to take many thousand steps down to reach it ( we were same level as from where water fall was falling so we had to desecend and reach the area of impact), i felt sorry for rehman (this is not for lazy people) we start the journey and sailesh goes and buys 4- 5 soft drinks and 6- 7 stuff to eat wasting money but later i realise its every ones money.

The water fall is a physical challenge like i never faced before, it was like man vs wild i had to make my way through ,leading the rest (sailesh came rest took lite after some stage, mohit was most pathetic at one point he just stared at route how to move on but didnt move ) we after going through a very difficult path jumping between rocks and holding on to rocks while we walk alongside in neck deep water. Then as we reach right under the water fall ,i stay for some time and then go for swim as close to the place where the water is actually falling on the water body below. I could never make it till there because water was flowing in opposite direction amidst all this i think of relative velocity and other physics and come back.

all this really left me tired and while coming back, i loose my concentration and do fall around much more than while coming towards the water fall. It some how became twice as hard now .we leave this place i ask if rehman can come back as when we reached back rehman had just came down from the stairs.

again i dont rememember where we had lunch or what we had .we go back . we leave for next place which is some wild life sanctuary .infighting starts between people . even though i dont remember where we were i very clearly remember what the fight was about , it was - rehman said take this vehicle till banglore because ,that was what ,the deal orignaly was. While mohit and udi said -no we want to leave from here on bus . even though i already had thought of this situation living with sailesh makes u anticipate twist and turns of story faster , but i took sailesh's side cause i was really enjoying the trip and wanted to stick together . i really didnt care about the money much.

against rehmans threats rest of the people got scared and werent outrightly harami enough to take on atleast not then.

we move on and go to some animal zoo and some elephant place where their rider a mohut i think its called had died tat day so we couldnt take elephant ride into the river so we plyd arnd with elephant for some time me and sailesh and then went into the river .

time travel is impossible

after years of watching movies, animes and cartoons and reading comics(read as education) about time travel , i have finally realised that it is impossible to travel back in time.

One thing that really makes it impossible is the butterfly effect, Now if somehow we discover a time machine go back in time ,we will then change the very future in which the time machine was invented, this change is gurrantted because of butterfly effect.( for people who dont know what it is watch the movie ,everytime he changed something small in his past his entire life changed : the butterfly effect)

this argument fails if time travel is like tweleve monkeys(i. e self consistent :there is only one time and past,future and present or simply put past depends on future as much as future depends on past . the example provided above then can be explaned in terms that the small change made in past only led to that discovery)

there is only one problem with that - this self consistency can easily be broken. if we record what we said in past and then come from future and dont say the same words that way.(yes there is a argument that universe wont let you change your words i.e that is person from future already knowing he had said some words (he saw the video na) cant change these words but i think he can .how many brackets has it been?

btw that leaves only one possibilty of the creation of new parallel universe i doubt a man made machine can do that

So thats my argument